Comfortable Nights

Last week was the first week since mid-July to consistently have nights cool and dry enough to be conducive to comfortable sleeping.

The past week was a slow one for the acquisitions department here at the Library of Winkelman Abbey. Pictured above are the most recent issue of Poetry and the new shipment from my subscription to the catalog of Two Lines Press, Kaya Days by Carl de Souza, translated by Jeffrey Zuckerman.

In reading news, I finished Skull & Pestle and immediately picked up Worlds of Light & Darkness: The Best of Dreamforge and Space & Time, vol. 1 which, being true to its title, is full of extremely good writing.

I also started A Swim in a Pond in the Rain by George Saunders, which is absolutely brilliant, and already one of the top books on reading and writing I have read in the past decade. I can see myself returning to this one, again and again.

In writing news, I have nothing to report. Family events took up all of my time and energy this week, and will likely be disruptive for some time to come. I hope to have equilibrium regained before the start of NaNoWriMo.

IWSG, September 2021

Welcome to the monthly Insecure Writer’s Support Group post. This month’s question is the following:

The question: How do you define success as a writer? Is it holding your book in your hand? Having a short story published? Making a certain amount of income from your writing?

“Success” has had many definitions over the course of my writing life, depending on a wide and constantly changing variety of circumstances, and also my experiences in life (generally) and with the literary world (specifically).

“Make a living as a writer” was probably my first goal, and likely the one most popular with beginning writers.

“Become a famous author” was the next goal, and it is not at all the same as the first definition.

“Publish a book” was next, and by now you can probably see a trend in the targets at which I have aimed.

“Complete a final draft” could have been a goal, but it must necessarily follow “complete a first draft,” which I have yet to do. And no, I don’t consider my output from NaNoWriMo to be first draft material.

Here in September 2021, well into the second year of the COVID-19 pandemic and with a significant uptick in cases thanks to the Delta variant and the nihilistic arrogance of people who think it Won’t Happen To Them, I define success as writing for at least a few minutes every day, no matter what form that writing takes.

To that end, I have been moderately, well, successful. Eight months into 2021, I have written about three dozen poems, created rough outlines for half a dozen short stories, and jotted down rudimentary notes for three novels. I write in my journals every day. I update this blog at least once a week. And yesterday I started planning out what I am going to work on during NaNoWriMo, which starts two months from today (egads!)

Success as a writer depends on prior successes, whether or not you define them as such. Effect follows cause. You can’t have a final draft without first having a first draft. And in order to do that, you need to, you know, write.

As we like to say in tai chi class, “If it was easy, everyone would do it.”

And a side note, because we are 20 months into a pandemic with no end in sight: It’s okay to be exhausted. It’s okay to be burned out and frustrated, and to not be able to focus on your writing. The world is a stressful place in the best of times, and these are far from the best of times. Be gentle with yourself.

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August 2021 Reading List

I finally dove back into short fiction this month, mostly thanks to three anthologies: Portals, Skull & Pestle, and Worlds of Light and Darkness. All three Are good reads and contain some hits and some misses, but overall the anthologies are well above average, so time spent reading through them was time well spent.

The Berardi was dense and complex, being critical theory, and seemed to lose focus at the end, though overall it had very important things to say and the knowledge contained therein will likely affect my world view in unexpected ways for some time to come.

Michael Sullivan’s Theft of Swords was a rollicking good read, and I look forward to reading more of his work. Fortunately I have at least three other books by him on my TBR shelves.

Two of the short fiction authors in this list – Szmerelda Shanel and Jessamy Corob Cook – have no personal web presence that I could find, so I included links to their entries at the Internet Speculative Fiction Database instead.

Books

  1. Berardi, Franco, The Uprising: On Poetry and Finance (2021.08.08)
  2. Sullivan, Michael J., Theft of Swords (2021.08.12)
  3. Bray, Patricia and Butler, S.C. (editors), Portals (2021.08.26)
  4. Wolford, Kate (editor), Skull & Pestle: New Tales of Baba Yaga (2021.08.29)

Short Prose

  1. Goder, Beth, “Candide; Life-“, Clarkesworld #179 (2021.08.02)
  2. Case, Stephen, “The God Skrae Eats Death“, Beneath Ceaseless Skies #335 (2021.08.11)
  3. Lambert, Brent, “Faithful Delirium“, Beneath Ceaseless Skies #335 (2021.08.11)
  4. Holzner, Nancy, “What Time is It”, Portals (2021.08.14)
  5. Friesner, Esther M., “This Way Out”, Portals (2021.08.14)
  6. Brett, Evey, “What the Wind Saw“, Beneath Ceaseless Skies #336 (2021.08.16)
  7. Tregillis, Ian, “Deus Ex Machina”, Portals (2021.08.18)
  8. Bedford, Jacey, “A Land Fit for Heroes”, Portals (2021.08.19)
  9. Grant, John Linwood, “Iron and Anthracite”, Portals (2021.08.19)
  10. Hall, Kate, “The Namesake”, Portals (2021.08.20)
  11. Koch, Gini (as Ensal, Anita), “Portal Pirates”, Portals (2021.08.21)
  12. Malan, Violette, “Doorways in the Sand”, Portals (2021.08.22)
  13. Kemp, Juliet, “Somewhere Else, Nowhere Else”, Portals (2021.08.22)
  14. Enge, James, “A Stranger Comes to Town”, Portals (2021.08.23)
  15. Harper, Steven, “Brick and Mirror”, Portals (2021.08.24)
  16. Cox, F. Brett, “A Bend in the Air”, Portals (2021.08.24)
  17. Moyer, Jaime Lee, “All the Lost Places”, Portals (2021.08.25)
  18. Palmatier, Joshua, “Onward to Glory!”, Portals (2021.08.26)
  19. Popovic, Andrija, “Hard Times in the Vancouver Continuum”, Portals (2021.08.26)
  20. Hurley, Patrick, “The Cracks in the Road”, Portals (2021.08.26)
  21. Forsyth, Kate, “Vasilisa the Wise”, Skull & Pestle (2021.08.27)
  22. Sloan, Lissa, “A Tale Soon Told”, Skull & Pestle (2021.08.27)
  23. Ross, Jill Marie, “Baba Yaga: Her Story”, Skull & Pestle (2021.08.28)
  24. Honigman, Charlotte, “The Partisan and the Witch”, Skull & Pestle (2021.08.28)
  25. Shanel, Szmerelda, “The Swamp Hag’s Apprentice”, Skull & Pestle (2021.08.28)
  26. Coates, Rebecca A., “Boy Meets Witch”, Skull & Pestle (2021.08.29)
  27. Cook, Jessamy Corob, “Teeth”, Skull & Pestle (2021.08.29)
  28. Edelman, Scott, “Answered Prayers”, Worlds of Light and Darkness (2021.08.29)
  29. Gallacher, Mark, “Pioneer”, Worlds of Light and Darkness (2021.08.29)
  30. Miller, John Jos., “The Ghost of a Smile”, Worlds of Light and Darkness (2021.08.29)
  31. Hurley, Kameron, “Judged”, Patreon (2021.08.31)
  32. Buckell, Tobias S., “Crypto Draconis”, Patreon (2021.08.31)

The Last Full Week of August

The only book to arrive this week is Together We Will Go by J. Michael Straczynski, which I picked up from Books and Mortar, the best bookstore in Grand Rapids. I have been a fan of Straczynski since I watched the first episode of Babylon 5. I have read and enjoyed many of his comics (Rising Stars, Amazing Spider-Man, Thor, et. al.) as well as his recent memoir Becoming Superman, so I have high hopes for this, his first mainstream fiction novel.

In reading news, I finished Portals, and it was pretty good! The stories were wide-ranging in subject and (sub) genre, but they tended to be better than average, with several being very good, and only one or two feeling like clunkers. Once again, the team at Zombies Need Brains has turned out a solid, enjoyable anthology.

I am now working my way through Skull & Pestle: New Tales of Baba Yaga, published by World Weaver Press. Back in early 2018 I wrote most of a story which I intended to submit to this anthology, but as I was in the beginning couple of months of a new relationship at the time, my priorities were elsewhere. So I never completed the story, but on a recent re-read I felt that what I had written still had promise, so I may finish it one day and see if I can find it a home somewhere.

In writing news, I don’t have much new to report. After transcribing my National Poetry Month poems last week, I spent some time this week organizing my poetry folder on Google Drive. This included linking each of the poems to a master list and adding tags for the type and theme of the poem, as well as a few keywords to help me find appropriate poems for themed calls for submissions, in case any of these ever move beyond first-draft status.

With the arrival of September in three days, I plan to start writing a new short story for an anthology which has a submission deadline of December 31. Four months should be enough time, I think.

A Slight Uptick In Energy Levels

Though I have not been in school for about thirty years (barring a brief stint as an adjunct professor in 2005-2006) I still feel an uptick in my mental/emotional energy around this time of year. The end of August meant the winding down of the terrible summer job, prepping for band camp, verifying classes and housing accommodations, and the anticipation of seeing people I had not seen since the beginning of May.

But above all the beginning of the school year meant a reset of sorts. My summer breaks tended to be less than stellar, filled mostly with terrible jobs, bad food, bad beer, and more than a little loneliness. Particularly before I moved permanently out of my parent’s house on the farm in the middle of nowhere. The new school year washed all that away. I started looking forward to returning to the campus before I actually left.

High school was of course terrible through-and-through. The dread of being stuck at home for three months was only slightly less awful than the dread of having to return to school in three months. Though there were some high points, they were good only compared to an extremely low baseline. As I told my uncle a few years ago, “making the best of a bad situation is not the same as being in a good situation.”

But my college experience stuck with me, in no small part because I spent so much time there. Fall of 1987 to spring of 1993, plus a spring semester spent studying in Russia in 1994. That is what I hold on to.

So I am continuing the tradition of refusing to let go of the past by enjoying a small resurgence of my writing energy. This past week I finished transcribing the three dozen poems I wrote during this past April, for National Poetry Month.

In the interest of clarity, I should point out that when I say “poems”, what I really mean is mostly stream-of-consciousness blocks of text which have yet to be edited or even broken into poetic lines, verses and stanzas. None of them are even remotely ready for public viewing or submitting for publication.

I also have scribbled down the outlines for a couple more short stories. At this pace I will have close to 20 by the time NaNoWriMo rolls around, which means I might be able to knock out the first drafts of a dozen or so stories during the month of November. I am feeling cautiously optimistic.

No new reading material arrived in the past week, a state of affairs which is happening more and more frequently. But it’s not like I lack for reading material here at the house.

Speaking of reading, I am about halfway through the anthology Portals, published by Zombies Need Brains as part of their 2019 Kickstarter campaign. I actually submitted my story “Occupied Space” to this anthology, and though it was rejected, it was picked up shortly thereafter by Coffin Bell.

And just to tie everything together, I wrote the original draft “Occupied Space” during NaNoWriMo 2016. Or maybe 2015.

All of which is to say, when the writing mood strikes, seize the opportunity and run with it, because it can be months or years before it happens again.

I Can Feel Autumn Approaching

I think this is the beginning of the long tail of COVID stress in my life. Almost eighteen months in, and the new normal has let to assert itself in any permanent way. Though I have not made any plans for the autumn and winter I have let myself begin the process of becoming emotionally invested in events and plans which will now likely not come to pass. For instance, I expect ConFusion will be postponed again in 2022, which at this point seems wise, considering the spike in new cases thanks to the Delta variant and the ignorant, nihilistic, self-absorbed bumble-fucks who refuse both mask and vaccine.

Chekhov Clifford Odets wrote “Any idiot can face a crisis; it’s this day-to-day living that wears you out,” but what if the crisis is the day-to-day living? And dying, of course, thanks to the previously-mentioned bumble-fucks.

The only new reading material this week is Counterpoints: A San Francisco Bay Area Atlas of Displacement & Resistance, from a Kickstarter campaign run by the always-excellent PM Press. This was a spur-of-the-moment purchase (or pledge, as it stands), inspired by our recent visits to San Francisco, as well as the ongoing news reports about the plight and treatment of the homeless population of San Francisco, and their (let’s just go ahead and call it sadistic) treatment at the hands of the powers that be. Grand Rapids is seeing an increase in the homeless population as rents rise and wages stagnate, and as more capital flows upward toward Those That Have, gentrification increases, which exacerbates the housing problem. Rinse, repeat.

In reading news, I finished both Beradri’s The Uprising and Michael J. Sullivan’s Theft of Swords. The Berardi was informative and enlightening, but seemed to lose focus in the last quarter of the book, an opinion apparently shared by others. Sullivan’s book was loads of fun from beginning to end, and I recommend it highly to anyone who likes sword-and-sorcery adventures and buddy movies, though the sorcery is minimal in this one.

In writing news, I have a small but growing stack of outlines for short stories, though no new prose to speak of. I am feeling more anxious at the though of not writing than at the thought of writing, which I suppose is an improvement. We will see how much of an improvement it is at approximately this time next week.

Doldrums and Butterflies

A couple of weeks ago I walked downtown to the office for the first time since March 15 of 2020. When I carded into the office I found I was the only employee on the premises. I logged in at my workstation and immediately discovered that several of the services I need to use for the project I’m on were unavailable from behind the firewall.

So I packed everything back up and walked back home. On the way home this butterfly – A Red Admiral (Vanessa atalanta) was sunning itself on the sidewalk about a block from my house. So the day wasn’t a total loss.

No new reading material arrived this past week, which is an increasingly common state of affairs as I get a handle on the fact that, with another person living in my house, there is only so much room for books, and only so much time available for reading.

In reading news, I am close to the end of Franco Berardi‘s The Uprising, and just past halfway through Michael J. Sullivan‘s Theft of Swords, and enjoying both immensely for completely different reasons.

My writing practice took a hit this week due to some unexpected chores and errands, and also the tail end of a project which sucked the life right out of me. I guess I’ll try again on Monday.

IWSG, August 2021

Welcome to the monthly Insecure Writer’s Support Group post. This month’s question is the following:

What is your favorite writing craft book? Think of a book that every time you read it you learn something or you are inspired to write or try the new technique. And why?

I don’t know that I have a favorite writing craft book. I’ve read so many over the years that it’s hard to say which one offered which piece of advice. And advice which was useful twenty or thirty years ago is not necessarily advice which is useful now, either because I have fully internalized it, or because I decided it wasn’t right for me at that time.

Leaving aside textbooks and style guides like Strunk and White, my first advice book was Natalie Goldberg‘s Writing Down the Bones. That was probably in 1989 or 1990, so I don’t remember much of it, other than that it (along with pressure from my Russian Studies professors) encouraged me to begin keeping a journal, a practice which I have continued to this day.

The most recent advice book I have read is Chuck Wendig‘s Damn Fine Story, which broke down story structure in a way which I had not seen before. Unfortunately I haven’t done much prose writing since completing this book, so I couldn’t say if it is useful to me, though it was a lot of fun to read.

Over the years I have of course read a great many advice books. Stephen King‘s On Writing, Tobias Buckell‘s It’s All Just a Draft, Ursula K. Le Guin‘s Steering the Craft, and I am sure many others which I am not thinking of at the moment.

I think I learn more about the writing craft from exposure and imitation than from studying. “Reading well”, as Dr. Karen Lord advises, is for me the single most indispensable piece of advice for my craft. The books I love, the authors whose poetry and prose I most admire, are the best available writing inspiration.

But imitation by itself is not enough, despite Hunter S. Thompson‘s practice of typing out books by Fitzgerald and Hemingway, word by word, in order to better understand how they wrote. Reading and re-reading my favorite authors gives me the tools to parrot their style, but doing so does not necessarily allow me to understand why their words work as well as they do. That is where books of writing advice can be vital. Books on the writing craft allow us to decipher why something works and, more importantly, why other things do not.

I don’t want to be the next Roger Zelazny. I want to be the first (or at least current) John Winkelman.

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Is the Writing Mojo Returning?

It appears that the writing energy is slowly returning! In the past week I have written outlines for a couple of short stories, and am also developing a plan to completely re-write the novel I wrote for NaNoWriMo 2013 in order to (a) rid it of its many, many problematic elements, and (b) make of it a coherent story. This will in effect be a first draft, as most of what is produced during NaNoWriMo is, well, not quite ready to be called a first draft.

This was another week which was light on new reading material. The only arrival this week was Jacobin, which like the last dozen or so periodicals which have arrived at the house, will end up somewhere on a TBR pile, awaiting my attention.

In reading news, I finished The Road Home and Automating Inequality. I am about halfway through Berardi’s The Uprising, which is bending my brain a little, as all Semiotext(e) texts do. I just started Michael J. Sullivan’s Theft of Swords, and at around a hundred pages in am quite liking it! Sullivan spins a fine yarn.

In writing news: Soon. That is all.

July 2021 Reading List

I didn’t do a lot of reading this month. Family obligations, the disruption of vacation (stay-cation, which was not at all different from my normal days, except for a little less time in front of the computer), and the overall ennui of mid-2021 conspired to keep me from being able to immerse myself in books like I was as recently as March of this year. I could blame the COVID vaccine, but really it’s the weight of the last eighteen months, making itself felt.

Books

  1. Verso, FrancescoNexhuman (2021.07.04)
  2. Harrison, JimThe Road Home (2021.07.25)
  3. Eubanks, VirginiaAutomating Inequality (2021.07.26)