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  • 55, or 11×5

    Happy birthday to me! I am now officially part of the “55 and older” cohort, which both simplifies and diminishes the experience of no longer being young here in the 21st century.

    Saint Petersburg, 1994

    30 years ago, as of this post, I was in Saint Petersburg, Russia, celebrating my birthday with friends and classmates in the restaurant of the Hotel Rus. The above photos is from that trip, when we visited the prison where Dostoevsky was held just prior to his mock execution. I am just to the right of the window, with glasses, shaggy brown hair, and a black shirt.

    This trip, more than anything else at that time, seemed to be the dividing line between my young life and my adult life. I still pull out the photos once in a while, and I still have the dozens of books, all in Russian, which I picked up on that trip. Can I read them? Not really. Not any more. My Russian is almost nonexistent at this point. Had I time and energy to do so, I would start learning the language again. I know just enough Russian to be able to pick out the line from The Master and Margarita which became my first tattoo.

    If my fifty-third year was one of re-emergence, this past year was one of re-connection. I have made contact with a number of people I have not seen in years or decades. It has been a wonderful experience, and from what I have seen of the next several months, is a process which is likely to continue for quite some time. I have heard it said that as we get older it becomes progressively harder to make new friends. This may be true, but as we get older, if we are lucky, we have more and more old friends with whom we can both share old memories and make new ones.

    And now, off to work. Only ten more years to go until I retire, and I am counting the minutes.

    (If you are looking for my IWSG post for June, it is here.)

  • IWSG, June 2024: What To Do?

    Pepper, doing the best impression of the Sphinx, with a mlem.

    Today (June 5) is my birthday! The above photo is Pepper, expressing her excitement at the thought.

    May was another busy month, though the writing was sparse. I spent some time reviewing some old manuscripts and rearranging my virtual space so I am ready to begin edits on the more promising of my many, many drafts. I feel like this is a make-or-break year for my writing, for no specific reason. I need to get out of the habit of confining all of my creative writing to November, and the best way to do that is to just start writing. Again.

    The Insecure Writer’s Support Group question for June 2024 is: In this constantly evolving industry, what kind of offering/service do you think the IWSG should consider offering to members?

    I view the IWSG as a support group more than a resource, though I am probably in the minority here. That aspect of the group is invaluable.

    For me, the biggest industry change over the past several years is the advent and growth of ChatGPT and related tools. Therefore perhaps the most pertinent offering would be a list of publishers which expressly forbid the submission of AI-created content.

    Happy June, everyone!

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  • Weekly Round-up, June 1, 2024

    A flower and a bee outside our house.

    [A small bumblebee, laden with pollen, attending to a flower outside our house]

    Happy June, everyone. And happy Pride Month! This past week was, for lack of a better word, good. I had a productive and relatively stress-free (and short, thanks to the holiday) week of work. I read a lot. I wrote a little. I spent quality time with my girlfriend. I relaxed with our cats. And I put the finishing touches on our raised bed/container garden. Not bad for someone who will turn 55 in a few days.

    And best of all, Donald “Trouser Trumpet” Trump was found guilty on all 34 counts of falsifying business records. Trump, being a coward, is crying foul and saying that it was rigged, and that he was the victim of a witch hunt, etc. To the surprise off nobody, his brownshirts are already threatening the jury, the lawyers, the judges, etc. Basically all the things he has been saying from the first time anyone ever told him “no.” Which was probably when he was about four years old, and that’s apparently when his personality stopped developing.

    Just to be clear: Trump has never been a victim of anything except delusions of adequacy (and possibly child abuse, considering the father was very much like the son). Not once. Not ever. There has never been a witch hunt. There has never been a conspiracy. Trump and his coprophages, bootlicks, and other assorted enablers have spun a wildly false narrative of being downtrodden fighters against overwhelming odds.

    MAGA behavior is textbook “predatory victimhood” which is part and parcel of the supremacist mindset (white supremacist, male supremacist, Christian supremacist, etc.) Anyone who is a member of an in-group, who tries to spin being a member of that in-group as really being part of an out-group (vis. the people complaining that there is no “straight people pride month” to counteract June being Pride Month), is a person whose every utterance, indeed their entire world-view, can be dismissed without further consideration. Ignorant cowards, one and all.

    And that’s all that needs to be said about convicted felon Donald J. Trump, and his ilk.

    Reading

    The Black Company by Glen Cook. This is a re-read. It is of a similar vibe to how I want one of the novels I am working on, so I wanted  to get my head into that space before I dive into a major re-draft this summer.

    Writing

    I spent some time moving the more promising of my NaNoWriMo drafts to new folders in preparation for re-writes and edits. So more prep for writing than actual writing.

    Weekly Writing Prompt

    Subject: Music, Addiction
    Setting: Library
    Genre: Weird Fiction

    Listening

    Back in 2000, when I worked at CyberNet Engineering at the beginning of my career as a web developer, I listened to “Flat Beat” a LOT! The rest of the album, Analog Worms Attack, is excellent as well. You can listen to the entire thing here.

    Analog Worms Attack was released in October 1999, just weeks after the official start of my career, which began when I volunteered to build the first website for my employer at the time. The fact that I only lasted about six months in that role should tell you how well that went.

    I only lasted about eight months at CyberNet, which should tell you everything you need to know about how THAT job went as well. Thus was my career born in pain and sadness.

    But at least I had Flat Eric to help me through the worst days.

    Interesting Links

  • May 2024 Books and Reading Notes

    May was a pretty good month for reading. I had some down time and managed to fill it with books, like I did regularly when I was much younger.

    Acquisitions

    New books arrived in May 2024

    1. Eva Baltasar (Julia Sanches, translator), Mammoth (And Other Stories) [2024.05.07] – This is the most recent addition to my collection from my subscription to And Other Stories.
    2. Vanessa Angélica Villareal, Magical Realism: Essays on Music, Memory, Fantasy, and Borders [2024.05.18] – This was an impulse buy I made after seeing the title mentioned favorably by Jeff VanderMeer on one social media account or another.
    3. Zig Zag Claybourne, Breath, Warmth, & Dream (Obsidian Sky Books) [2024.05.20] – This was a Kickstarter reward from a recently-completed campaign. I met Zig Zag at ConFusion, back in, I think, 2016. He is a superb writer and overall a most excellent human being.
    4. Dinara Mirtalipova, Russian Tales: Traditional Stories of Quests and Enchantments [2024.05.28] – This was a birthday gift from my partner. It is gorgeous!

    Reading List

    Books I read in May 2024

    Books

    1. Ian Monk and Daniel Levin Becker (editors), All that is Evident is Suspect: Readings from the Oulipo 1963 – 2018 [2024.05.08]
    2. Daniel Suarez, Kill Decision (e-book, re-read) [2024.05.10]
    3. Silvia Moreno-Garcia, Mexican Gothic [2024.05.13]
    4. João Gilberto Noll (Adam Morris, translator), Atlantic Hotel [2024.05.16]
    5. Sarah Hans, An Ideal Vessel [2024.05.18]
    6. César Aira, The Proof [2024.05.20]
    7. Corey Robin, The Reactionary Mind [2024.5.28]
    8. Glen Cook, The Black Company (e-book, re-read) [2024.05.31]

    Short Prose

    1. Oskar Pastior, “Rules of the Game”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.01]
    2. Hervé Le Tellier, “A Few Musketeers”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.02]
    3. Pierre Rosenstiehl, “Frieze of the Paris Métro”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.02]
    4. Jacques Jouet, “Poem of the Paris Métro”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.02]
    5. Harry Mathews, “Sainte Catherina”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.02]
    6. Jacques Jouet, “The Republic of Beau-Locks”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.03]
    7. Ian Monk, “We Did Everything”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.03]
    8. François Caradec, “On the End of Time”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.03]
    9. Paul Fournel, “Novels”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.03]
    10. Anne F. Garréta, “N-evol”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.04]
    11. Olivier Salon, “Invisible Cities: Lille”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.04]
    12. Jacques Roubaud, “Arrangements”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.04]
    13. Frédéric Forte, “99 Preparatory Notes to 99 Preparatory Notes”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.04]
    14. Pablo Martín Sánchez, “Metric Poetry”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.05]
    15. Étienne Lécroart, “Eodermdromes”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.05]
    16. Harry Mathews, “Narrative Sestinas”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.05]
    17. Étienne Lécroart, “Counting On You”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.05]
    18. Hervé Le Tellier, “Liquid Tales”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.05]
    19. Bernard Cerquiglini, “A Very Busy Year”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.05]
    20. Olivier Salon, “Shark Poem”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.06]
    21. Ross Chambers, “Brief Encounter”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.06]
    22. Daniel Levin Becker, “Writer’s Block”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.06]
    23. Jacques Roubaud, “⊂”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.06]
    24. Marcel Bénabou, “Our Beautiful Zeroine”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.06]
    25. Paul Fournel, “The Beautiful Appetite”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.06]
    26. Valérie Beaudouin, “Northern Line”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.07]
    27. Michèle Audin, “Caroline, October 21, 1935”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.07]
    28. E. Berti & P. Martin Sánchez, “Microfictions”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.07]
    29. Daniel Levin Becker, “Epithalamia”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.07]
    30. Frédéric Forte, “The Pitch-Drop Experiment”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.07]
    31. Clémentine Mélois, “Louise”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.07]
    32. Michèle Audin, “No One Remembers”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.08]
    33. Ian Monk, “Return(s)”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.08]
    34. Eduardo Berti, “An Ideal Presence”, All that is Evident is Suspect [2024.05.08]
    35. Jim C. Hines, “Daddy’s Little Girl”, Patreon [2024.05.29]
    36. Jim C. Hines, “Gift of the Kites”, Patreon [2024.05.29]
  • Weekly Round-up, May 25, 2024

    Flowering shrub outside my house.

    [Above photo: The landscaping is filling in nicely.]

    ‘Twas another busy week with naught to show for it except continued employment. So I have that going for me.

    Reading

    Still plugging away at The Reactionary Mind, which is still very good if unpleasant reading. I also pulled Moonbath by Haitian author Yanick Lahens off the shelf for some fiction to read in my evenings before bed. It is excellent so far, if heartbreaking.

    Writing

    Not much to show, writing-wise. I feel the urge to write, and the ideas are all lined up and ready to go, but I have not yet bridged the gap between wanting to write and actually sitting down and writing. I chalk that one up to burnout.

    Weekly Writing Prompt

    Subject: Death, Possession
    Setting: Bar
    Genre: War

    Listening

    Interesting Links

  • Weekly Round-up, May 18, 2024

    Mother opossum with a baby

    [Pictured: A mother opossum carrying a baby, photographed on Mother’s Day while walking to Kaffeine Place for breakfast.]

    I am not quite as busy as I have ben in past weeks, but that just leaves space for stress to creep into my life. So it goes.

    Reading

    I finished Silvia Moreno-Garcia’s Mexican Gothic, and it was wonderful! I will definitely be looking into more of her work in the near future. I am still working my way through Corey Robin’s The Reactionary Mind. It is slow going not because of the writing, which is excellent, but because the subject matter makes me feel…guillotiney. In my spare moments I read Joäo Gilberto Noll’s short novella Atlantic Hotel, which was decently good and weird.

    Writing

    Weekly Writing Prompt

    Subject: Evolution, Cryptids
    Setting: Lost City
    Genre: Solarpunk

    Listening

    Hot Chocolate, “Every 1’s a Winner”. I heard this song – possibly for the first time every – when Z and I walked into Bobcat Bonnie’s for dinner this past Wednesday. I didn’t recognize the song but I knew the voice, though it took some time to remember that it was the same voice from “You Sexy Thing,” which received much airplay after The Full Monty was released.

    Interesting Links

    • The Collapse Is Coming. Will Humanity Adapt?” (Peter Watts and Dan Brooks, The MIT Press Reader) – Watts interviews Brooks about the inevitable, human-caused, ecological collapse, and what we may do to increase our chances of surviving, since mitigating is no longer on the table. This link comes via a post on Watts’ blog, where one of the commenters pointed out that the path up the technology mountain, post-collapse, will not look like the path we took to get where we are currently, because the availability and distribution of resources will be much different than it was last time. Food for thought.
    • AI ‘art’ and uncanniness” (Cory Doctorow, Pluralistic) – A long article exploring the short- and long-term implications of banning the training of LLMs on copyrighted works. To sum up: There are nuances. It’s complicated. And the real bad actors are probably not the most obvious bad actors. Well worth the read.
  • Aurora Borealis, Spring 2024

    These are photos taken during the evening of Friday, May 10, during an amazing display of the Northern Lights. I took these photos with my Google Pixel 7 Pro phone, from a back yard in the middle of Grand Rapids. This is only the second time in my life that I have seen the Aurora Borealis, and it was everything I could have hoped for.

  • Weekly Round-up, May 11, 2024

    Our raised-bed garden.

    [The above photo is the raised-bed garden Zyra and I installed in early May. Soon it will overflow with healthful vegetables.]

    Reading

    The Reactionary Mind by Corey Robin. Mexican Gothic by Silvia Moreno-Garcia

    Writing

    Not much, unless Javascript and Cascading Style Sheets counts as writing.

    Weekly Writing Prompt

    Subject: Reincarnation, Politics
    Setting: Library
    Genre: Steampunk

    Listening

    Interesting Links

  • Weekly Round-up, May 4, 2024

    A Mallard duck on a log at the top of the Sixth Street Bridge dam.

    [The above photo is of a pair of Mallard ducks resting on a tree trunk which is stuck at the edge of the Sixth Street Bridge dam just north of downtown Grand Rapids.]

    This past Sunday, my good friend Christine Stephens-Krieger became the new Poet Laureate of Grand Rapids. Christine and I go way back. We worked together at Schuler Books and Music. We read poetry at several events. When I was part of Caffeinated Press we published Christine in our literary magazine The 3288 Review. I had the honor to be part of Christine’s project An Oral History of Poetry in Grand Rapids. And now I am part of the Grand River Poetry Collective, a local company which Christine created at the end of 2023.

    For many years, Christine coordinated the Dyer-Ives Poetry Competition.

    All of which is to say, I look forward to what she has planned for the next three years.

    Reading

    Still working my way through All that is Evident is Suspect. I love this book so much! I also started The Reactionary Mind by Corey Robin, based on its mention in the Cory Doctorow link at the bottom of this post.

    Writing

    Not much to show this week, though I finally got into the groove of writing at least five story ideas for each of the weekly writing prompts. Those ideas are now scattered across two journals, and when I have the time I will transcribe them into a Google doc.

    Weekly Writing Prompt

    Subject: Dreams, Cryptids
    Setting: Lost City
    Genre: Lovecraftian

    Listening

    This is the kind of music that is getting me through long sessions of writing code for ServiceNow.

    Interesting Links

  • IWSG, May 2024: Squirrel!

    Pepper, basking in a beam of April sunlight

    April was insanely busy, even by the standards of my already-overfull life, so this post will be brief.

    The Insecure Writer’s Support Group question for May 2024 is: How do you deal with distractions when you are writing? Do they derail you?

    Writing for me generally doesn’t start until after I have already dealt with most potential distractions.  Therefore my writing time is fairly distraction free, aside from interruptions from the orange maniacs (one of which is pictured above).

    And as for the internet-as-distraction (social media, doomscrolling, etc.), well, that is kind of the background radiation of 21st century life, and if I am not immune to the lure of arguing with strangers on FB, or whatever, I have become fairly good at compartmentalizing.

    But don’t let me keep you from your writing. How’s YOUR focus these days?

     

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